I couldn't help thinking to myself, man Heavenly Father is really really funny. Because I've been seeking companionship & trying to figure who he'd like me to be with for a long time. Even though I've begged him for certain people. And he turns around & gives me 1 palangi cowboy, two africans & a couple of eye-candy mexicans by the name of Mikey & Danny Boy. Who don't flirt at all but hella crack me up during our shifts. And again all I can do is laugh at what Heavenly Father has given me through these men. Feeling like this is a test for my pride. And on my part I have to remain super patient.
That I follow the counsel my bro Alvin Uta'i gave me once. "Ova don't be that kind of girl, when a guy is nice to you that you'd automatically brush him off. Taking it as if he's hitting on you, when really he just might be treating you nice because he's just that, a nice guy." And when we had that conversation I thought, "Dang we (meaning people) oft times really do think too highly of ourselves. Sometimes as if we are truly god given gifts to the opposite gender." When in reality we should be respecting these people for even being kind enough to ever have admired us at all. Whether it's our looks, personalities or sense of humor whatever it is that would attract them to us. Instead being stuck on ourselves w/pride. Gratitude would be a better response.
Alvin taught me that we shouldn't be so full of ourselves by his simple comment. And even though I'm not attracted to these men & am flattered at the attention they give me. I'm determine to befriend them & in a big way "GET OVER MYSELF" until my Heavenly Father sees it fit that my true love arrives. What a great reality check ;)