Sunday, December 30, 2012
In 25 hrs from now it will be 2013! Happy New Year! During the last five days I was fortunate to catch the flu.LOL So during my process of getting better. I've also had a lot of time to reflect on the passing year. The ups,downs and how those experiences have molded me into who I am today. Its been an exhausting year esp Nov -Dec making July & August the most refining on me emotionally. Grateful that September-Oct rebuilt the spirit I thought I was losing And all the while God taught me about his timing,to trust him and no matter what I'm tested, Giving Up Is Never an optionNever!!! And because he spoke & amp; speakes those truths into my ears to strengthen my soul. When everyone else walked out on me. And he didnt fail me & Because he did that for me he also brought to light the "pretty little lies" I was telling myself about myself. And noy only that but the"Pretty little lies" other ppl were telling me, in order for them to get their way or that they could manipulate me to thinking I am who they say that I am but little do most people know about me til now.Is that I'm not as stupid as they may think I am and if I come off as so. Its only a way for me to distinguisah who really respects & loves me. And who's out to just make a mockery of who I am, why I love the way I do & what I'm all about. I'm just as imperfect as the next woman. I'm a saint that sins but I do what it takes to always rewrite my wrongs to make things right. And if people can't see that than they really don't want to understand me because if they knew any better, they would know I live & die by truth & repent when necessary, from the lies I have weakly expressed out of unwise human tendancies. All I have to say is I know better, I know who I'm for, who's for me, I know pretty little lies will get me no where & that lying cripples my progress amp; in the incoming year 2013 truth will be the core motivation of how I will live. Even if it means walking alone in that incredible goal to becoming better than I've ever been before. Pretty little lies like my favorite poet Ben would say, Please take yourexit to the back door. The old Ova no longer resides here no'mo. 2012 stretched me leaps & bounds & I will forever be grateful but I'm ready for new adventures so cmon 2013 its time to live it up :)
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
- It's been a very busy couple of weeks & I've been dying to blog. From wanting to jot down my progressive exercising w/my sister Sela Tukuafu, to accepting invitations to sing solos in choir by sister sina in order to
overcome my fears plus being more patient overall. I just haven't been able to sit still to detail these events. But what I've learned thusfar is loving myself, taking care of myself and living in a state of becoming versus being truly does help me to obtain joy. My sister Rosie asked me recently "What do you want for Christmas."
And w/o a second thought I blurted out "A man!" and began to
laugh because though I said it & thought that's exactly what I wanted. I took another minute to think about the question. And this amazing feeling came over me. I have everything I could ever want. My testimony, healthy family and a home filled w/love and protection. And even though my husband is on delay and though certain relationships could be better than they are & it wouldn't hurt to own certain electronics. Nothing could compare to those blessings I have in the family that drives me bonkers at times but I wouldn't trade in for anything. And that's the best gift I could ever ask from God. "I'm not the same and am ready for 2013 & whatever may come I willl love it. Cuz my God has put me 1st so He's at the top of my love list. LOVE YOU & MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL! :)