Friday, December 20, 2013

Sourced Out

© All I've ever wanted growing up was to be a hero. I wanted and still want to inspire the misfits, the underdawgs and people who feel rejected by haters to reach their potential.  I want that for the unloved to feel love. The lonely to feel supported and those who are already leaders to feel relief when their load is heavy. And why have I always wanted that for people? Well because at one point or another. I've known what it feels like to live as someone who isn't supported for the inspiration I do my best to be and give. And because Im not always charitable like I should be. My desire to be a hero or inspiration isnt always spread to those I find challenging to love. And yet Im working on that no doubt.

But STOP! I'm not a victim like I use to think of myself in the past. Nope that's not me. I've only fell short of being the hero that I desired to be in the past because I loss focused.
I started to grow harden by delayed blessings, lack of standing up for myself to cater to everyone else except ME and I just loss motivation.  I took my eyes off the prize.

Today like Tori Kelly sings in her cover "Roar" I am living to be a hero to myself. Doing my best to speak less and place more action to my word. In the last three months emotional chaos has hit me in ways that I could never imagine. 

Here's the things Ive learned. Which is 1)No one cares about complainers. So fix yourself.  2) Believe in yourself because people pretend well. 3)Self-respect moves people to self-motivation. Life goes on and the past should be lessons not excuses to give up. I'm excited to see 2013 come to an end but enthusiastic to begin 2014 on the right foot.

Life is what we make it and I will continue to strengthen my weaknesses & know for a fact my influence will expand as I work at it. I am blessed and see what is important. Merry Christmas

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Second Chances

Everyone at one point or another in their lifetime comes to a moment they have to make a critical decision. Of whether to give a person a second chance be it love, a shot at a career opportunity or whatever mind blowing circumstance they be confronting.  And all I want to say whether your the giver or receiver of "Second Chances" don't screw it up. If your a lucky jerk of receiving "Multiple Chances" and you still selfishly find a way to sabotage things. Then expect karma will get you. So wise up and make the best of your "Chances" before you regret the blessing of starting fresh. #FreeFall

Sunday, December 1, 2013

For Oooh So Long

It has been a crazy few months of highs and lows. Hellish episodes sparked by unbreakable bad habits but on the other had redeeming triumphs nonetheless. We are in the month of December and how the year has just flown by. I am extremely grateful for our Lord and Savior. I am blessed beyond words description that I haven't loss my testimony. Especially when it would've been easier to say "The hell with being a disciple of Christ, let me just eat,dance and be merry." I am grateful I have enough sense and love for God to fight those tempting feelings. Which have arose more than I can ever remember.  I'm still found standing on his side and I am so grateful for that blessing.

I've gained a sister-in-law through my younger brother Roy who was married this pass Oct 12,2013. It was a beautiful wedding. My other younger brother Rocky is expecting his fifth son. My younger sister Teuila's 2nd son Loi is growing and is such a cutie. As for the baby of our family King Tuifiaola and I. Lets just say, though our spouse's are taking the scenic route to finding us. We are doing well and learning the true meaning of patience and trusting in the Lord.

And so  even though seasons change and families grow in their separate spaces. God is good to us and for oh sooooo long it's been a beautiful fact to wake up to daily realizing I am blessed. Really and Truly I am blessed.