Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Perfect Day

As I sit here to reflect on how perfect today was I'm in awe that it had nothing to do with anything that Ive specifically prayed for prior. And here it is what made it perfect. Waking up at 6am but didnt roll out
of bed til 6:20am to find my mom patiently get King Tui ready for school so I could cook his breakfast. No ordering me around, no complaining
about how I prepare Tui's meal and no rushing me
for this, that or the other from her. Which made
it a perfect kickoff for my day. Then lead to
feedback from my friends that spun off of my daily "Believe Me/Look Up" fb grp. Made me extremely happy. Really, none of you will ever really know how much your feedbk means to me. Where Im gonna take that fb grp will be a massive change for greatness. Somethin Im excited about for 2014.

 My day continued on with walking around Temple Square with my bestie Sela Fangufangu Tukuafu exchanging 2014 goals and dreams to be accomplished. Highlight of that part of my day was the bright sunlight, chilly air and peacefulness felt over laughter that guided us to our favorite Pancake Spot. Well the rest of the day into the evening, up to this second is proof that a perfect day doesnt revolve lavishly spent indulging in materialistic and shallow living of worldly wealth. But that it exist in solid family relationships, loyal friends and God given gifts. As simple as the air we breathe and the miracle God gives us daily to be protected under his care. Only if we let him in and trust him. It doesn't mean we haven't felt or seen pain. But today reminded me that counting Lifes Perfect Days is way worth ones time than counting the Imperfect Ones. Dont give up! especially when misery seems to be creeping into your heart. Live Happily!
 God is with you even if you feel no one else is present! Dont Give Up!

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Suffocating Thoughts

This past week has been a great week and yet in between alot of things that were uplifting about my
past week. Suffocating thoughts of worry concerning my family, friends and future spouse crept into my mind. Almost to a level of half an uneasy anxiety to a boarderline moodiness.
And when I get to that point then company from
anyone is the last thing I want at all. By the way
I didnt mention my kids as a worry because I have full faith their just chilling in Heaven wondering just as much as myself "Seriously daddy (hubby) just take yo'time, geez." Lol

So back to what I was saying about my suffocation etc etc. :) This is how Im getting through those thought.

1)Constant Prayer, Temple Worship and Meditation (Emily Young Inspired on the Meditation)

2)Venting over food w/my sisters, venting
Over the phone, in person and exercising together with them. The exercising option is the best solution.

3)Reapplying the daily notion of "Let Go and Let God." As Im growing as a person, I understand more fully that I dont need to control anything or
anyone. The only person I need and should be
controlling is myself. Because bottom line ppl pretend well like my mentor Trent Shelton says and
at the end of it all. People will do what they feel and want to do.

So I am actively living by trusting God more.
By doing that and living in that fashion. I avoid
being stressed out for free, angry for nothing and
hard hearted for the hell of it.

People will disappoint, backstab, smile in your
face and gossip behind your back, tell your secrets,mock you as a person, laugh at the dreams you carry,second guess your kindness, belittle your
judgement and do anything to make their value override yours.

But what Ive also found working hard so those type of ppl dont add to ones suffocating thoughts. That we will experience in life til the day we die. Is let them be. Be kind,pray for patience, pray for them and let God handle those types of people.
Otherwise you will drown in drama.
The mind and flesh of man is weak but when we give all our stress to God our spirit and heart can be  renewed to higher heights of freedom to breath easy.. And who couldn't use a life spurt of easy breathing from unnecessary drama and ppl?


Saturday, March 8, 2014

Peacemaker

There is no greater peace than that of finding it in Christ. There is no greater love than that of God and earthly parents who are selfless to a fault. There is no greater security than that of a sibling that even through the messiest of arguments and misunderstandings can find it in their hearts to overcome pride and forgive one another. There is no greater gift than that of peaceable people giving that gesture just in the nic of time.

Today I attended a funeral service for a sister that I rarely saw throughout these past few years. But when we would see each other it was always a blessing. Her name is Emily Young, Samoan decent, an independent woman to say the least and during her 45 yrs of life she lived with purpose. During her services I was reminded that despite being single and LDS life doesn't end there. Life is meant to be lived to the fullest, by loving people unconditionally and showing forth mercy where mercy is due.

It's only March 2014 and attending this funeral and sending love and prayers to the ones that I've missed year. It puts into perspective that life isn't just too short to hold grudges but that without constant awareness that forgiveness is essential in our day to day lives. We will slowly decay into a waste because we decided to be hardhearted and hold onto our pride instead of peace. 

Thank you Em for reminding me of that today.. As you fly with angels rest in love! Love you!