Sunday, December 25, 2011

Drugs? Why Not!

I am on some real blogging overdose. I can not control myself & it's getting worse. It's funny but not funny at all. But before I get into all that :) my christmas eve dinner was amazing. Food was delicious, company was hilarious and everything was cleaned up & done before midnight. We celebrated with our moms side. The Tagaloa's/Ripley's and Suapaia's & I was grateful. To remember that life is amazing & complaining is a waste of energy. Two of my cousins wives are pregnant-Sarah Mataia & Po Tagaloa, my sister-in-law will be delivering her baby next month. So it's gonna be crazy around here. Am I baby hungry? Not so much but husband hungry.. Yeah.. just a little bit.. But it's all good. He's somewhere out there. :) My beautiful sister tina mapu will be serving her mission leaving feb 1, 2012. So we'll be Vegas bound and I can't wait. That was the great news for the week. I love my family, my Lord & Savior my only needed drug.. Nothing else to satisfy my soul. God is good... all the time!

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Have Ye No Room

I've been on a writing frenze @ and I can't Christmas is coming up &  it still hasn't snowed.. And alot of heavy conversations with my sisters & remembering certain church talks recently has had me really thinking. Especially about the story about when Joseph & Mary when pregnant with Jesus was trying to find a place for her to have Baby Jesus. Then when they asked the innkeeper for space he unwisely turned him away. But if he had know it was a place for a destined king. The story goes onto point would he have made room. And so it's hit me. How much am I making room for the Lord in my life. I talk about him everyday and during any and every blog that I write. But how am I actually making room for him in my life? So those who don't know him will make room for him in theirs. It's just been on my mind constantly these past couple of days. I know that's one of the reasons I can't stop writing my poems. Feelings like water won't stop flowing. Well I'm out. Wish you all a very Happy Holiday with all the love I could muster! Take care & thanks for all the comments & visiting my blogs. Means the world to me :0) O

Monday, December 12, 2011

Tell Me Something Good

You know that I'm a real blog junkie when I have this one, than one for my poems @ this one and then another for "my sisters" @ this one  
you can say I'm a bit crazy. But ask me to write a book & I'll be like hmmmm no thanks.hahahaha Anyway point is I'm baaaaaaaaaaaak to this blog and do I have some funny things to share. Or at least to me it's funny & so I hope you get a good laugh out of Well Friday til this morning I worked all 3-day 12hr shifts.. And man ol'man I wanted to die & sad to say complained about my aching feet & body the entire time. But good thing for the power of prayer I survived the ordeal. Funny story number #1 my friday night shift I didnt have to catch books like I usually do & send them through to shipping to get them processed. I got to make new friends in the calander dept. And to get the time to pass by faster. I'd ask all kinds of ppl a zillion questions. Well by the end of the shift this 39 yr old man by the name of Ed decided he'd visit me in my old area & during brakes. Which is cool but when becoming friends with a few of my african male co-workers. One by the name of Jacob 25 years old who is dead set on going out & thinks that I'm lying about not having a cell phone. And my second african friend that thinks he's a mack daddy tryna sound  all sexy & stuff when he's talking to me. My poor buddy Ed was feeling kinda cheated, which was pretty sad to witness. So with an aching body & laughing about these current events.
I couldn't help thinking to myself, man Heavenly Father is really really funny. Because I've been seeking companionship & trying to figure who he'd like me to be with for a long time. Even though I've begged him for certain people. And he turns around & gives me 1 palangi cowboy, two africans & a couple of eye-candy mexicans by the name of Mikey & Danny Boy. Who don't flirt at all but hella crack me up during our shifts. And again all I can do is laugh at what Heavenly Father has given me through these men. Feeling like this is a test for my pride. And on my part I have to remain super patient.
 That I follow the counsel my bro Alvin Uta'i gave me once. "Ova don't be that kind of girl, when a guy is nice to you that you'd automatically brush him off. Taking it as if he's hitting on you, when really he just might be treating you nice because he's just that, a nice guy." And when we had that conversation I thought, "Dang we (meaning people) oft times really do think too highly of ourselves. Sometimes as if we are truly god given gifts to the opposite gender." When in reality we should be respecting these people for even being kind enough to ever have admired us at all. Whether it's our looks, personalities or sense of humor whatever it is that would attract them to us. Instead being stuck on ourselves w/pride. Gratitude would be a better response.
 Alvin taught me that we shouldn't be so full of ourselves by his simple comment. And even though I'm not attracted to these men & am flattered at the attention they give me. I'm determine to befriend them & in a big way "GET OVER MYSELF" until my Heavenly Father sees it fit that my true love arrives.  What a great reality check ;)

Funny Story #2 so with all these updates about my love life & the lack of it. While spending time w/my sister that I told you all that got cheated on a few weeks ago. I learned so much from her when she came down & I got the whole story. I felt so bad for her & even though at times I wanted to kill her for going against what I advised her. I learned that marriage is hard work & it's not a blissful lala world all the time. I came to understand that when pride is in the way nothing grows from that emotion. But it truly does destory relationships. From this sister I came to understand that assuming a spouse's intention or motive will land anyone into a falsehood of things as they really are at the time. I know that through her experience if I ever want a healthy marriage I have to be willing to pick my battles & know what is petty & what is an absolute dealbreaker. Man if I could only have you pick at my brain everything she taught me. I promise you'd want to appreciate that your single & work on your weaknesses before you meet that special someone. And if your married the lessons I learned would teach you to appreciate your spouse more & stop knit picking at the small things that really don't matter. What my sister taught me was & is priceless & was my motivation to humble myself & try out LDS And that's the funny part about story #2... It just made sense to me when she was here that even if I don't ever go on a date w/any of these men or find my eternal spouse through this tool. The point of that matter is that I humbled myself and what I feel Heavenly Father is always trying to tell us through our lives. Is that if we would but listen to him through the people & the experiences he gives us. We would understand his will & way but when we don't listen then that's when we mess up. I'm tired of messing up. So I hope you all are feeling the same & use the tools & people God has given you to gain greater happiness.
Whether your single,married,divorced,have family or don't.. The greatest thing you can do is get over yourselves & just listen to the most reliable source man could ever have which is God. And with that said here's one of my most favorite poets. Hoping you all get to experience this kind of love in your lives. :) Click here BeN Falealili

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Remember Me

Well I'm back and it almost feels like blogging isn't worth pursuing right now. Especially after all of the many things that I've learned this week. Participating in Auntie Ravena Mapu-Finau's funeral has been such an "eye-opening" experience. That blogging seems to feel so secondary to what I could be doing. But you all know I'm addicted lol So maybe it just won't be as excessive as before. We shall see..
Anyway the services for auntie was beautiful.
At the beginning of the week it felt so much was dragging. Then midweek Wednesday & Thrusday the pace seem to pick up &  the traffic in the house was non-stop busy. And all of a sudden it was Saturday & we were at auntie's viewing. Most of the time I was with my dear sister Crystal talking about everything and Good gossip I promise :) if there is such a thing. I had the opportunity to spend time with my dad. Who kinda took over with our "Mapu Night" when it came to sharing our love for auntie Vena. But we couldn't expect anything less from him and it shouldn't have been such a surprise to everyone. Though it wasn't approriate for whoever thought he might've been a crazy man singing countless songs. I stand as a proud daughter. Grateful for a man that I can call dad that can tap to his own beat both on the stage & in life. Who loves big & doesn't let anyone stand in his way in expressing that love.  And if people have a problem than they'll just have to deal with Like my sisterfren Tilila Paongo says "If dad gots it than he should flaunt it I love his voice."lol At least my pops had one outside of the family that didn't mind :) Anyway the night was filled with beautiful music & testimonies. 
Sina & Gwen Tuaitanu sang this song called "Remember Me" and they were amazing.
It was so fitting to the type of person my Auntie Vena was & is til this day. The Moleni Brother's sang after the Afo/Mapu Uncles, Lil'Leia sang the last slow dance Auntie Vena had with Alvin Utai. Tony,Gipper,KV,Leia,Ben,Soni and a few other boys sang "Mama" by Boyz II Men and that was Sunday. Us girl cousins sang Saturday Night "Heaven Needing A Hero" & later on a Maori song. And in between that Auntie Lusi Mapu sang "Dance with my Father" and a few other songs. It was just amazing at the talent & strength of testimony that was in the entire program. Through my cousins the Mapu-Finau Clan & what Auntie Vena taught me by word & deed. I will never forget and will always remember her & the legacy she's instill in all of us. I am so blessed with a great family. Heaven sure sent angels to us when he assigned me to be in this family. Priceless for sure!

Friday, December 2, 2011

Heaven's Hero

Today was a great day with our Mapu family at Auntie Vena's house.. I got to spend time with my narnia a.k.a narnar a.k.a Nola Mapu-Finau.. Quality time with her was much needed. Today's life lessons were the love of a mother for her children & how to patiently express that love. No matter how irits they may grow up to be. While I was people watching when the traffic in the house was getting busy with "cultural traditions" I learn the value of respect. But my second favorite moment of the night, had to have been when we got together with our Mapu & Fiso cousins. Singing a song written for Auntie Vena title "Heaven Must've Needed A Hero." I would post the lyrics but a video is on its way. So patience is the virtue my dear bloggers.. But here's auntie doing her thang..
Thee best poi ball dancer in the world and her last performance before she enter into Heavenly Father's presence. :)
Tomorrow that will be the first song for the viewing. At least that was what they told us. But you know polynesian functions they are subject to change. I am so grateful that I was born into a family of entertainers and hardworkers. I can't wait to hear everyones testimony tomorrow. Today was definately a day to remember.  

Positive Vibrations

Auntie Vena & Narnia
So we've been preparing for Auntie Vena Mapu-Finau's funeral here in Salt Lake City,Utah this week. I've been so grateful for the lessons I'm learning. From what she meant to people, her approach on life and the love she never stops giving. As we were plating and serving food I'd catch myself feeling "Man I want to be just like Auntie Vena." And because of her great testimony of family and gospel. She is my constant reminder to keep things simply honest, direct w/kindness & to give love fully. No matter what or who may act out in crudness,ignorance or craziness. Love them no anyway. For whatever personal issues that they may be dealing with in their lives. Love them anyway & never let them forget why you love them. Leaving them better than when you found them. Inspired to becoming the best they can be. I still have so much to work on in applying those lessons learned today. But I know if Auntie Vena can do it. Then there is no doubt that I can too.  I saw my favorite people today & can't wait to seeing more aiga,friends from Provo Stake & my ward Lehi FA'taha :) 
In celebration of a life that will never be forgotten.
Love you Auntie Vena!

Aunties last trip before entering into Heaven
Oakland Temple for my uso Alvins Wedding
along with my brother Kinga & my sis Narnia