But in all honesty, in my waiting to exhale moments, I've envisioned a little violence in my heartaching dayz.
And then coming to my senses I've remembered, I got too much living to do to dare go that route. But that's the point at the end of the day. Loving someone comes with alot of joy, mindframe that nothing is impossible and hope for a lasting relationship LIVING happily ever after.
Which is pretty hard when it seems like everyone from their mama to their dawg is getting hitched. What I'm learning today is being single doesn't mean that I'm not desirable.
Being single should never be an excuse to let people use me mentally,emotionally and especially physically. Loneliness can do that to the best of any of us. But we should never surcumb to it. Being single to me today means I need to get other things in my life in order. So when true love does arrive I'm ready.
So since I haven't had a crush on anyone for awhile it's been nice to just be chill about the subject and share with you how I've grown. Which means I've decided not to box my love away into some confined compartment. Truly emoting the best whether or not I receive the best. Because I refuse to allow my circumstances of being single taint my love. I am aimed to keep it undefined by all means without living by anyones standard of what they think "love" should mean to me. I've allowed people to control that part of me for too long with judgements of;