Thursday, May 31, 2012


For you that don't really know the meaning of "Hogwash" let me tell you what it means. ;) It means nonsense.. And so it's been a semi-productive week. But what's thrown a kink into it, has been my "Hogwash of Batchful Attitude" Moody at home but so happy go lucky fo'joy joy when I'm not.. I wish I could blame it on my "monthly visitor" and no I'm not talking about my visiting But yeah I've been full of "Hogwash" on the home front because of me.. So here's my remedy in case your having a "Hogwash of a week,month or year"lol

1.Pray it away
2.Work to help that prayer a reality
   (can't pray for something & expect it to magically appear) (I know right? but food always seems to make me happy..
                 Can't you tell by how big Baby Greta is getting..)
All I'm saying is eat but don't get grazy..
4. If none of the above works. Vent to your besties..

Cuz they'll do two things.. Let you complain a little then if their true besties. They'll slap some sense into you & tell you to "GET OVER IT!"And then problem solved or at least it should be..

Holding onto "Hogwash" isn't good for anyone.. I should know, I've become a master at holding onto it.. But what matters is we do our best to let it go & make better tomorrows. Rather than getting caught up, on yesterdays that can't be changed.

I hope that helps & that you all enjoy your weekend.. I'm playing matchmaker with a couple of my friends.. So it'll be nice to blog about those experiences soon.. HARAH FOR PROACTIVE DATING.. Speaking of Harah.. I might get the opportunity to attend a fireside. Where Elder Groberg & his wife will be speaking at this sunday.. So if you all are in Utah & interested let me know via gmail & I'll give you the address. or inbox me through fb.. Here's a clip of who Elder Groberg is & his story.. HARAH FO'hAPPIER DAYZ!!!

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Friends :)

As I was saying in my last post. I made a lot of new friends by attending SLC 2nd Ysa, my old ward on Sunday. And being given the opportunity to reunite with my old friends also..  Gina Fonua & Ofeina Puamau bore beautiful testimonies on the power & influence of prayer.
Ofeina sharing an experience about being exhausted from a 5 day 12 hr shift, praying she'd have the strength to endure the last two. Then her supervisor reassigning her to do computer work instead of patient chk ups. And in her head doing cart wheels in her mind when she recieved that blessing.
Gina testifying on the importance of relying on our Heavenly Father, once our earthly father has passed away from this life.
Retaining hope that our Heavenly father will still be here for us. Sharing her own experience of her father's death & the impact it makes when we listen to the promptings of the spirit. And become an answer to other peoples prayers & being in tune with answering our own prayers. Not getting caught up with fear when we should always be ready to move into action mode, when the Lord is nudging us forward to change our ways.
With each passing hour of church I just kept getting so many different personal revealations. I felt at home, peaceful & like I was getting spiritually recharged. Which was a feeding I needed for a long time. Following sacrament & heading to Sunday School. I was able to get to catch up with my sisters Katie Featherstone & Julie Caledron.. Laughing up a storm about the ol'ward dayz. Running into my former fhe chairman, brotha Lei Talamaivao. Roughing him up for being "special" lol. Then class began & listening to my super sweet friend Eduardo Diaz, teach us how to write our covenants on our hearts. Not just being lip serving disciples of Christ. But really serving from our hearts, so we don't find ourselves just going through the motions of the gospel. But truely serving with all of our hearts. Eduardo is a hilarious teacher & friend. Then to reconnect with "bakermon" lol Hinckley Vaisigano... And laughing about his lack of replying to fb msgs &  coming back to choir. Him giving me his reasons which translates into excuses to why he's a fb ninja. lol One week activated fb & the next inactive.. Must be nice having a fan But it was nice to just laugh with him & not at him something him may or may have not caught onto :)lol okay maybe it was a lil bit more laughing at his excuses oops I mean reasoning abt fb.. lol :) Oh what are we gonna do with these priesthood holders?? shhhh no leaking out msgs :)
Then as usual like the perfect icing on the cake. Getting the opportunity to listen from our new SLC 2nd Relief Society Presidency.. The lesson was given by Vienna on friendship & improving visiting teaching. The energy & love she & her presidency have for the sisters is evident that they will grow in unity. I was grateful to listen to their testimonies. Reminded to cherish the friendships I have & mend the ones I've broken..
Later I spent sister time with my sister frenz Amanda, April, Marie, Dawn & Emma Taufui & chilling w/Sister Toefete again.
Made for some good country time dancing,grubbing & tryna figure out the male species.. :)

"And greater love hath no man least  he lay his life down for his friends."

Monday, May 28, 2012

Helping Hands

It was a good weekend & I had some much needed laughs with my sisters. Today is a beautiful Memorial Day & the sun is beaming. I was able to join some friends last Friday to serve food for Salt Lake's local homeless shelter. Before passing out meals. The less fortunate or homeless attendees, have to sit through a church service. This is how they earn their meals.
And this program is usually headed up by non-denominational groups. When we first arrived I was a little nervous. Just because we were asked to fill out a check-in sheet w/our contact info. And I suggested to the girls to just put their names. Yes, I was super paranoid assuming the homeless would just show up on our door step.. Sad, huh? But I'm an ignorant human, I guess you can say. Well, anyway after that we were, directed to sit at the right of the building. And then the service began & there were speakers, religious songs sung & testimonies borne. Kind of reminded me of the Assembly of God church, that we attended before I join the Lds church. And it felt good to witness people worship God. Then something happened that I will never forget. 
Two men walked around passing an offering basket by each row. Which was to have people donate, whatever money they had on them. And I witnessed a few homeless people, place a  few of their own coins into the basket, without a second thought. And the first thought that crossed my mind was "Wow!" They have barely enough to survive & yet they still found it in themselves to give. And I was humbled & grateful for the lesson on charity & the confirmation that charity truely never faileths.. What a blessing to have relearned that lesson through these struggling saints.
Priceless experiences of service.
Yesteday which was Sunday was my day of much needed laughter & spiritual feedings, like I mentioned at the beginning of this post. Dawn & Emma Taufui picked me up & we headed off to support one of our choir members Jacinta Toefete.  She has been called to serve her mission in the 
Quezon City, Philippines.
So we attended the Mapusaga Samoan Ward for her services & she did amazing. She started off in Samoan, filled the program with personal experiences in English & then ended her talk in her mission native tongue, Tagalog. It was a beautiful program & it felt nice to hear our Samoan Priesthood holders lead our members. And to be in the building, I spent my youth years, when I was first converted into the church & Auntie Leta Mapu was the young women's president. And out of all the samoan wards at that time ours was the best I'll never forget singing "How great Thou Art," with the members.. They were so proud :) Through the Taufui Sisters I was able to make new friends Donnie something or other lol.. and Jared Pese..

                                                      To be continued

Thursday, May 24, 2012

For Get Me Not

Now you all know I'm the biggest blog junkie & yet it's been just one of those weeks. I've been dying to post something & haven't been able to put anything up. So today felt great to finally post & especially after the week I've had & also the most productive day I've had with certain people in my life. I wanted to start this post off with a poem, I got from my Relief Society Training last night. It's pretty long so just read it, I promise you won't regret it.

The Girl in a Whirl

Look at me, look at me, look at me now! You could do what I do, If you only knew how, I study the scriptures on hour each day. I bake, I upholster, I scrub and I pray. I always keep all the commandments completely; I speak to my little ones gently and sweetly. I help in their classrooms! I sew all the they wear! I drivethem to practice! I cut all their hair! I memorize names of the General Authorities, I focus on things to be done by priorities, I play the piano! I bless with my talents! My toilets all sparkle! My checkbooks all balance! Each week every child gets a one-on-one date, I attend all my meetings (on time, never late!) I'm taking a class on the teachings of Paul, but that is not all, oh no, that is not all!

I track my bad habits 'til each is abolished, our t-shirts are ironed, my toenails are polished! Our family home evenings are always delightful, the lessons I give are both fun and insightful. I do genealogy faithfully too. It's easy to do all the things that I do! I rise each day early, refreshed and awake. I know all the names of each youth in my stake! I read to my children! I help all my neighbors! I bless the community, too with my labors. I exercise and I cook menus gourmet, my visiting teaching is done the first day!(I also go do it for someone who missed hers. It's the least I can do for my cherished ward sisters!)

I chart resolutions and check off each goal, I seek each "lost lamb" on my Primary roll. I can home-grown produce each summer and fall but that is not all, oh that is not all. I write in my journal! I sing in the choir! Each day I write "thank you's" to those I admire. My sons were all Eagles when they were fourteen, my kids get straight A's and their bedrooms are clean! I have a home business to help make some money, I always look beautifully groomed for my honey
I go to the temple at least once a week. I change the cars tires, I fix the sinks leak! I grind my own wheat and I bake all our bread. I have all our meals planned out six months ahead.

I make sure I rotate our two-year's supply, my shopping for Christmas is done by July! These things are not hard 'tis good if you do them. You can if you try, just set goals and pursue them!
It's easy to do all the things that I do! If you plan and work smart
you can do them all too! It's eays she said.. And then she
                                                 DROPPED DEAD!!

-By Vikie Gunther

                                                                  Proceed to F.G.M.N PT 2

For Get Me Not PT 2

So I wasn't lying when I said that poem was super long, right? Well when Mary had recited that last night at our training. My first thoughts were that this woman does exist.. Through my mom, many of my aunties like auntie vena mapu finau, alot of my sisters like my younger sisters teuila vainuku & florisa talo-kiora, my older sisters rosie afo, dahni wiley and pricilla moleni.. Countless women that I have met throughout my life & will continue to meet.

And it's not that each woman has the same tasks that were mentioned in that poem. No with every different sister they have a list tailored to their lives & I'm sure have had instances that they just wanna DROP DEAD due to exhaustion. So I wanted you each of you to read that poem to understand this;

---One God has never forgotten you.. With all the trials that weigh you down, all the disappointments of a spouse that might not live up to your every expectation & seems to not always think of your well being because their self-absorbed. I want you to know that God has not forgotten you & he will never forget you..

This blog post title comes from a talk given my Elder Uchtdorf in our 1st Presidency of our church. Please read the talk by clicking on this link. Forget Me Not Link/Click Here here are his points & how I felt about each one..

First Flower Petal- First, forget not to be patient with yourself!
Pointing out do not spend your lives comparing your weaknesses to someone else's strengths. You will go nuts & accomplish nothing!

Second Flower Petal- Forget not the difference between a good sacrifice and a foolish sacrifice.. For example it's saturday night & the next day you might have to teach in class. Do you stay up all night making treats & personalize package each one & find the best packaging. Or do you study the lesson to understand the principal to be taught & concentrate on individuals who the lesson could impact by being spiritually prepared. Both good tasks but the best one would be the latter of the two.  Choose your sacrifices wisely.

Third Flower Petal- Forget not to be HAPPY NOW! Not to be happy in the past & the satisifaction of yesterdays triumphs or what's to come in the future. But be happy now! In waiting this part of his talk encourages, do not allow yourself to grow bitter in the delay of certain blessings or "golden tickets" that have yet to arrive. Be HAPPY NOW!

Fourth Flower Petal- Forget not the 'why' of the gospel and President Uchtdorf says; Sometimes, he said, Church members focus on what the Lord wants them to do and how to do it, but forget the why. Which to me simply means when we forget the "why's" of serving in the church & becoming & constantly renewing our commitment to convert ourselves. Then we don't have the motivation to be committed to this restored gospel with all of our hearts. Because we've lost focus of "why" we do what we do. Which should be first & foremost to please God & one day return to him & our older brother Jesus Christ. Now finally our last flower petal.

Fifth Flower Petal- Forget not that the Lord loves you
I've said it previously & I will continue to say it.. He loves you more than anything in this world. I am a very defected work in progress type of person. I have as many flaws as the next person & make mistakes all of the time.. JUST ASK MY ROOMATES.. But this is what sets me apart. I know my Heavenly Father because even before joining the Mormon religion. I had a solid relationship with him through the power of prayer. Which only grew stronger when I became a member of this church. And because I fought & still fight hard not to compare my weaknesses to other peoples strengths & I've trained myself to repent as soon as I've fallen. I am a testament the power of Jesus Christ Atonement heals all wounds. I wish that I could give each of you this knowledge & testimony for you to always be protected by. But I can't.. You have to seek it, obtain it & retain it for yourself.. I'm telling you.. even though your heart at times feels like God has forgotten you. I gurantee you in his beloved's sons name. Even Jesus Christ he hasn't forgotten you so forget him not.. He's waiting to heal you..

Wednesday, May 16, 2012


Time just keeps flying by & we only have two more weeks in this month. And summer will have arrived. It's crazy to me but the ride has been unforgettable. I see so much in the day to day routine & the power of friendships & relationships that I've come to gain & lose.
And this week especially, today was a day of losing but gaining a lot of different things, I hadn't expected.
Like my decision  to chop 9 inches of my hair off . One for change & other just to get a rush from the shock it would cause family & The only thing I regret is that I didn't think to donate my hair to Love of Locks.  Next time for sure.

Well I felt brave today in making that change. And as simple as a hair cut can be to anyone. The choice to make that step left me feeling a sense of empowerment. Sounds silly but it's true.  I won't go into too much detail about it. Other then to say it felt good to follow through on something. And not feel like anything or anyone could stop me. Because it was my choice and stepping into a situtation where I took back the power. That I've been hounding  my sisterfrens to take back from men that won't love them in the way that they deserve. It just felt like a sigh of relief & freedom. Not only that but the blessing of receiving a lot of answers. Answers to different things in my life that I've been worried or thinking about concerning my future..
Feeling like I'm not what I once was, won't fuss over what I should've been but sure am happy I'm living to better in the "now phaze" to become all that I can be. Who knew a few little changes like a hair cut could leave such a profound affect,aye? lol Well sistahs, take that leap of faith & do what you got to do, to find your empowering moment of joy!   Enjoy my jam love this song.. Pictures of my new hairdid coming soon.

Sunday, May 13, 2012


Mom & King Tui
Mother's day was nice this year.. We missed having our dad here. Just because he's so funny when he's being bossy. It just feels with that nitch under his belt of experience. Not only does it cause us good time laughs. It actually does bring order to our family gatherings.
But the boys did a great job by taking charge this year. Rocky & Sea put on some yummy bbq, my sister Teuila made a delicious yellow cake and mom pulled off a nice tangy salad.. Simple has been the running theme with our recent holiday dinner's & it's proven to be a hit. 

Our Top Chefs
Rocky Afo & Sea Vainuku

Meaty Grub

Hard at work

Alot of love went into getting this dinner together. And though our mama's didn't really get to rest. Mom & Teuila on their day & during this weekend. They prove to me that a mother's work is never done. Their example reconfirmed to me that the love they have for their children is endless. And just like we're indebted to Heavenly Father for our blessings. I feel mother's carry that same class. That no matter what we do for them. We will never be able to pay off our debt because of how much they willingly give. And I'm humbled by those facts.

Mama In Training
Baby David & I

To all you mama's that do everything for us & don't always get the recognition & appreciation you deserve. Thank you for never giving in or giving up on us. Thank you for loving us especially when we are unlovable by our own selfishness. You are appreciated!
Those who have raised your children, are still awaiting to have a child and those who have bravely had to send your babies back to heaven. We love you! Happy Mother's Day

Friday, May 4, 2012

Home Alone

It's been an up & down kind of week, more ups then downs. But when those "Debbie Downer's" come it feels like there were no So the house is clear from my roomies & everyone is out & about. I just wanted to post this story I got from Oprah's page and share what great wisdom she has gained from one of my favorite poet's. Mz Maya Angelou! Hope you guys have a joyful weekend & will capture this "Pay it Forward" story and spread your Thank yous.. One thank you's I have today is to our Heavenly Father. Who's blessed my sister tirae & her husband matt with the news, that their expecting their first baby. He was just baptized a few weeks ago & they just got married at the beginning of this year. And I'm so happy for them.. I truely have the best family that can drive me up the wall & friends that can test my patience. But all in all they are the fabric of what makes my life worth living.
May 2nd a great man by the name of Jr. Seau was reported to have comitted suicide. A gun shot to his chest & it just brought up alot about our own brother Tuau & other love ones that have passed. And all, I can say is watch, how you treat the people in your life. I am guilt of being ungrateful & even selfish, alot in my life with certain people. The people that support & care for me, unconditionally. But at the end of the day I know I am nothing without them. So I do my best to treat them better the next opportunity I'm given by God.
 Let's make it a habit that good treatment will come more second nature to all of us. Rather than put downs, critical comments & bullying. And yes this bully said bullying, for you love ones that like to Point is we want to prevent tragic stories like this Jr. Seau's to continue through our kids. So it doesn't have to happen so often or happen at all. Jr Seau was a famous NFL player & role model to all races but especially polynesians/samoans. That they can make anything happen. If they work hard, w/heart & a loving family to see them through. He was 43 years old a life truely cut short... Seek the rainbows through the clouds And LIVE!
Today's Thank You Game challenge is to thank someone who has helped you be brave. (
I most want to thank
Maya Angelou for helping me to be brave. In my most fearful moments, she has been the one I relied on most, and called first.

Years ago I phoned her complaining about what I've now long forgotten. She shared these words, "Courage is the most important of all th...
e virtues, without it, you can practice no other." It takes courage to be kind when others are not. It takes courage to be truthful when a lie might suffice. It takes courage to keep moving forward, when you'd rather quit. I've learned that courage, or opting for bravery, is feeling the fear and still doing what is necessary to overcome it. And in the very act of bravery you don't feel brave but just feel what is true and most real.

Ironically one of my most desolate moments, barely being able to speak in between sobs of despair, I called Maya looking for comfort and sympathy. Instead she sternly chided me, "STOP IT" she said. "Stop your crying right now and say THANK YOU!"
"Why would I say thank you for this?" I said. "Say thank you because you know God, and you know He put a rainbow in every cloud. The rainbow is coming. Say thank you even though you can't see it. It's already there."
So in the worst of times, I still remind myself of that great lesson and say "Thank you"…and then prepare to see the rainbow.

Today's rainbow was post on
The Daily Love. I took the dogs out at 6am. Sat quietly under the oaks I call the Apostles, (because 12 of them together form a beautiful canopy). It's my favorite spot to Be.

Came back inside read The Daily Love and found the rainbow.

It was exactly what I needed to hear and be reminded.

Thank you Mastin Kipp for helping me be brave.


Thursday, May 3, 2012

Burn Baby Burn

My favorite form of working out has always been dancing. Since I was a little girl  peforming in our dad's family show, that's been our joy. Even by our over worked hrs & small only my dad can :) At least we have funny stories from those early days, right? my poor  Well anyway I've been slacking on my 24hr fitness visits. Really badd with drinking too much soda & eating too many fresh bake choc chip cookies. And I can't even afford to be acting like a foo, doing all those bad habits. Especially because my best friend's wedding is in 3 months. And  I kicked my muli (translation-*bootie*) into gear today. Finally attended a Hot Hula Class last night. And it felt good.. Not only will I be hitting 24hr fitness but also Hot Hula weekly. Instructed by my good friend Tau Utai Taumoepeau & her dance partner Kris Leong Allen.

Kris is by the boat & Tau is in the Middle

They were awesome & I totally felt at home wobbling my baby greta, all over the place. I was sela 3 minutes into the warmups & kept thinking oka this is gonna be a killer. And so when Tau asked at the beginning of class, "How you feeling ladies?" I blurted out like a phat kid that has had one too many choc chip cookies & soda. "Burning! my legs are burning."lol Not a good look for a newcomer & saying out loud what everyone was Except our instructors Kris &
It was great :) & I can't wait til next week.. Thanks for Amanda that agreed to go with me & my sister
Crystal breaking me in when she came down for Auntie Vena's Funeral. Who goes to gold's gym cause they don't wanna get hefty. I mean healthy from all the funeral food?lol Crystal does.. Hope to look as hott as her at the end of this journey.

Sister Crystal Hot Hula'ing in Vegas

Grateful for Great-Grand uncle Lei'a Mapuolesega my grandma Aimiti's brother who started this legacy of dancing in our family. And for Grandma Nola his sweetheart that was with him every step of the way. We wouldn't be as good as we are without his vision & love.
Miss You & esp Auntie Vena :)

My dad w/the red lei & our family
Grandpa Lei'a & our Og's

Our beloved Sister Teena Galeai Fa'amaligi
My YSA years :)