Friday, April 24, 2015


R.M. a nickname often used to label the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saint members who have returned from their year and a half mission call for sisters &for brothers who've served two years. Meaning R.M. return missionaries and in the words of Elder Ballard that doesn't mean "Retired Missionary."lol

I returned from my service on July 16,2003 and so it's been a ride of crazy ups & downs. It's been a test to keep in & on my heart everything I learned from that experience. I have full faith that even if I hadn't served my mission I would still be a strong member of this church. I know it because as young as 9 yrs old I decided for myself that I would never stray off from God's loving care. It hasn't been easy, it never was but through every hardship I've experienced. God has proved to me time and time again he is right with me. He lets me know that my package of opposition is to mold me & bring me closer to him and to praise him. Which reminds me that even if what I want doesn't turn out for me. What he wants for me will be far more better and satisfying. So I bring up my love for my mission because this Sunday, a week ago, I was able to witness one of min friends bare testimony of the love he has for his mission. This friend of mine was able to set at easy any anxiety I had during his talk. In which that would cause me worry that he'd fall off now that he's home & have a mindset of thinking he can be a "Retired Missionary" instead of an active "Return Missionary/Member Missionary. But he is focused and boldly claimed that he is gonna fight to keep his testimony.

It was 2010 when I met this friend of mine by the name of Alapati Agalelei Talamaivao at our Salt Lake 2nd YSA Ward in West Valley,Utah after a ysa fireside. That night he was one of many University of Utah football player speakers & he was freshly returning from inactivity to church at the time. Shortly after that fireside he joined the ward  and we ended up serving in our ward's family home commitee. I was able to witness his testimony open up, I learned how to follow his direction rather than trying to give him direction lol and though I had to leave the ward. It was nice to know he was doing good. As he grew into Christ's glory it was a pleasure hearing about him sticking to the planning & keeping his decision to serve a fulltime mission versus continuing his pursuits to entering the National Football League (NFL).

Salt Lake 2nd FHE Ward Ensign Peak Hike Lei @the TOP leading our Ward 2011 

Unfortunately when Lei prepared to leave to serve. I missed all his important milestones. Him graduating from the U of U, him entering the Salt Lake Temple for the first time, getting his mission call and giving his farewell talk. So to attend his mission report back from serving in the Auckland New Zealand Mission was a blessed miracle. All reservations I had about him losing his testimony were put to rest when he gave his testimony. Our "cupcake" has truly evolved into who always was to our Lord & I know that whether it be 15 years, 50 years or even 150 plus years from now no matter what will come to Lei. He will overcome all Satan has to throw at him. Because Lei's been through the valley of hell & knows for himself the view from high on the Lord's mountain top is worth much more than falling & remaining in the presence of Satan & his temptations.

Elder Talamaivao Auckland New Zealand Mission

I am grateful for our relationship & am excited to see Lei succeed in all he seeks to accomplish & this former football player now disciple of Christ is sure to exceed all that is ahead for him. #PowerInThePriesthood

  "And now, my sons, remember, remember that it is upon the rock of our Redeemer, who is Christ, the Son of God, that ye must build your foundation; that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds, yea, his shafts in the whirlwind, yea, when all his hail and his mighty storm shall beat upon you, it shall have no power over you to drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless wo, because of the rock upon which ye are built, which is a sure foundation, a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall."


Thursday, April 9, 2015


It's almost been a week after; ushering in General Conference & Easter Sunday for this year. I've received so many blessings and answers to questions that I hadn't realized I needed answers to recently. There have been so many high points about the End of March up to this point in the first week of April. I can't fully express what its meant to live more confident, less begrudgingly towards people who are two faced and those who do their utmost to judge me for my weaknesses as if they aren't filled to the rim of their own. 
I thoroughly am grateful for the opportunity to get rid of my follies & mistakes through the Atonement of Jesus Christ. I see Satan daily and from moment to moment do his best to "Kill my Vibe" as the world would word my feelings. I see him work through my closest love ones to break my spirit. But because I know any other way to beat him except through the power of prayer. I often wonder if those closest to me really understand the battles I face or if they just see me as someone who has it "Easy It" because I don't feel their pain for their own package of "follies, mistakes & mistakes." 

Well this isn't a "pity post" so that anyone reading can pass as "oh get over yourself ova." 
This post is about being a sinner who's battling daily to refine herself through Christ's Atonement to be a stalwart saint. These words are to inspire the tired,weary and deeply dedicated sinner-saint that feels restless of being obedient. Feeling discouraged not getting the resulted blessings that you may  feel should've received by now. If you endure to the end, you will come to understand your efforts aren't wasted. 

 This post is for the sinner that feels their too  fargone that God could ever heal them. 
I testify to you he loves YOU!!! LET HIM ENTER YOUR HEART & I promise you will be armored properly to fight off Satan & he won't have the power to "Kill your Vibe" or drag you down to hell to sit in misery as "Spirited Men & Women of God." 

Aprils showers bring the renewal of fresh perspective but only if you all it. Don't live below your Godly Potential. BE FEARLESS!!