Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Love The Most

Today was the second year opportunity that I had to share my heart about my brother Tuau Afo with U of U College students that attend Jake Fitisemanu's course. This has been such a strengthening outlet for me because the more I talk about Tuau's character I feel him so close. Despite the choked up emotions and tears that come with how we've survived 8 years w/o him physically being here with us. God has definitely shown me that Tuau still lives today. Especially since he lives through our hearts. I often wonder will we ever get a grip of his death. But then days like today tells me it's ok if we don't. That all we can do is honor him through our good deeds & just be patient until the day we reunite w/him. March is always a rough month but grateful he's our guardian angel & watches over us. Even if no one else will do it. The true definition of a brother.

This weekend is General Conference weekend, Sammy J Concert on Friday and Selu Tuitama Hafoka lined up for the Josh Wawa concert. Which should be a good time & interesting to say the least.
Love still hasn't acome knocking at my door. So we'll see what April will bring to the forefront.

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Walking Dead

It's been a beautiful and somewhat cool spring day. I took some time to stop by Salt Lake City Temple & do some temple work. But mainly to shake off the exhaustion of trying to be in the right place at the right time. I was able to reflect on the past 3 months. The choices I've made that have lead me to peace & some choices that have lead to so so days. I'm not at all where I want to be concerning everything about my life. However today reminded me I'm not at all far gone that I can't still make it. We've sprung forward an hour in our time change. And so far so good. The just of this post is no matter what happens in life. Whether you feel super excited & full of life or if you feel like your a character off of "Walking dead" trust me when I say things aren't as gloomy as they may feel. Just keep on, holding on..
The following photos are of  1)Pauline (Damein's Daughter) & I  at her uncle Ben Fonua's burial Feb 27,2016.
2)Jimbo,Me,Havi & this awesome performer at my first 2016 Reggae Rise Concert March 5 @ the Complex. 3) Pukana Faces w/my sistah/fran Lulu's daughter Tariana at the Malialole Dance Studio for Jo Aiono's Baby Shower Feb 12,2016.

Friday, March 4, 2016

Inside Out

Have you ever felt as if all you want to know is if your in the right place at the right time with the right people? Well this thought has almost plagued me since the beginning of the year. I've thought of my family, old friends and the new ones that I have been able to make over the last 2months. Some days are extra productive and hopeful. But on other days they aren't as successfully upbeat for me. Like rain the lessons keep pouring out one after another. I'm a "People Watcher" and enjoy observing what makes one tick. So the above questions naturally causes me to think about my immediate family, current best friends and since the new year began  and the time I've had to reconnect w/my Sugarhouse Sisters/Malialoles.

I wonder how do they get through the rough days? If they don't believe in God or in the restored gospel of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latterday Saints. I often sit and wonder, how do they bounce back from the pain, stress and anxiety that comes w/life trials? So I throught a great correlation to this blog post of mines would be the cartoon movie "Inside Out." I don't want to give away the story line. But I wanted to point out the main character "Joy." I related most w/her because I've found that as I've gone through life.

No matter what the trial I was in at the time. I always tried to force my way through it because I felt if I did that then the pain wouldn't be so heavy to carry. Under the impression that it wouldn't last so long & then I could get to my final destination. Which would be happiness. Well I've learn since then that happiness is a journey not a destination. Pain & joy must be felt to grow into ones best self. Though neither pain or joy lasts forever. If we're wise enough while going through those emotional phazes. We would choose to grow towards God not away from him. To work with him and not against him. This much I know of God. He loves us with all of his heart. He didn't create us to remain stuck in our pain caused by the past, present and/or your future.

 And if any of you suffer from any type of addiction. Food, drugs, alcohol,sex, etc just know that there are programs, professionals and your local church leaders that can help you get out of those addictions. But it begins with what you plant in your mindset. If you think you can't you wont. But when you tell yourself you can let go of those addictions. I guarantee you will be right & you will achieve VICTORY.. . No problem is too small or large that you could present to the Lord & he'd be more then willing to help you. From the inside out he can and will heal you.